Hold on
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I'm a simple girl, with a complicated life :) my name is layan, I once HAD a family, they all passed away when a terrorist or criminal or madry shsalfat'hm el was5een attacked my home and my family, I watched them rip their body parts of , one by one, I watched the blood flow out like a fountain from every piece that was de-attached from their bodies (separate chapter for that incident) anyways, it took me about 4 years to get over them, and now it's been 5 years since their death, im still 17, so I don’t have a driver's license unfortunately, im adopted by …im not calling them humans… maybe….. a wicked witch and a rotten rat that were sent to me from hell, and I hope they both rot in hell :) they treat me like im they're slave, and I've lost about 15 kilos to be exact since I've moved in with them, which was just a few months ago… im really tall and I have green eyes, and since I haven't been eating and going out, im really white and pale, my hair is wavy and goldenish, I try to keep it alive by using some products my mum advised me with when she was alive, they ACTUALLY work perfectly, so my hair is really healthy el7amdilla, I sing on the roads sometimes, which is where I get the money from, my eyes are wide, like my mothers, and my lips are luscious, like my sister's, and my hands and feet are actually TTIIIINYYY for some reason xD like my dad's, so I have a bit from everyone, except my brother, I have nothing that can remind me of him, except his picture that I saved in my old wallet which I managed to keep with me and not loose
Usually, when a girl, or guy, looses they're family, and have to live with a witch and a rat, the kid turns out to be a bitch, bastard, careless, mean, rude, unraised, etc… I don’t want to be that, I want people to look at me and say that my parents did a great job when they were alive, I want to carry on what my parents were forced to stop, so I will, I don’t go to school, no-one is willing to pay for me, but I go to the library down the street every day, and try to learn as much as possible, I only have 2 friends, my best friend is joud, and my friend is meera, they’re both Palestinians ,like me, but they don’t speak like I do, they prefer ba7rany, so I speak that when im with them… Joud, I don’t know how exactly I can live without her, she's everything I have left in this world, she's really pretttyyy!! She has looooong black hair, she's also white, and she has blue eyes, all her features are small and cute, small eyes, small lips, small nose, small body(still tall) small hands, small everything, 7adaaa cutee!! And meera is also amazingly pretty, tan, hazel eyes, brown medium length hair, cat eyes, straight nose, fat lips, and fit body (fit as in she litrelly has a four-pack xD)
It was a Thursday morning, everyone is at school now, except for me, I had to stay in a tiny room with only a pencil and a few papers to keep me entertained, but I realized my hair products are finishing :( so I decided to go gather some money, I went outside, the witch and rat didn’t even ask where I was going, as usual, I walked under the sun's bright lights and city's loud noises, then I picked a spot where there was a lot of people, I sat down on the pavement, and opened my guitar case, and took my guitar out, and kept the case for people to throw me the money in, I closed my eyes for a second to try to listen to the music around me, to see which song would match… car's beeping, people talking, bird's tweeting, ……. I decided to play a song from step up 4 , it’s a calm song, I chose it to calm things down around me, and I started:
' I'll hold on as tightly as you held on me *guitar solo* and iii, will build , a home, for you, for meeeeee, until death.. secureess, for me, for youuu, and I'll hold onn to yoouuuuuu.. my darlinggg…' and continued the song(Emily and Shaun's duet song) , people stopped to listen to me… god took everything away from me, but he gave me the most powerful gift that im sooo thankful for, he gave me the gift of music, and understanding music's power…… some people threw dinars, and some threw filses, I counted them and they weren’t enough, so I decided to move somewhrere else, I walked down to the beach, and thankgod there was some people there, even though I came here to make money, the sea tempted me soo much, it looked so clear, and so blue, more of turquoise actually, and the sun shined so bright against it, making a reflection of the clouds, unfortunately im not very appropriately dressed for a swim, I'll come back later, so I picked a spot, and did the usual, and decided to sing a Turkish song my mother used to sing for me when I was little.. : "ozoom hamanst, harset kalden,yozoneey, mohtaj aminan, senin bertek yozoneey, kapar nasam sa naaalsm dezeney, donan meer, ene eskik ur neleeey' and continued the song, I didn’t know if what I was singing made any sense, and I don’t know the exact meaning of the song, but I know that’s its talking about alone, and I need you, and I need just one word from you, stuff like that, I continued the song, as my 'audience' clapped along and threw me more money, im making more here than I made in my first stop :D after I finished my song, I counted the money, I made 15 BD :D that the MOSTT iv'e eeeveeer made!!!! And it's perfect!! I'll have money left for the next time I need them, I stood up, and walked back home… when I came in the stinky place the witch shouted
Witch( Fatin) : WWEIIN R7TAAAY?!?!?!
Me: re7t atmasha shwy
Witch: LAA 9IIJ WALLLAA?!?! SM3YYY , MATCHATBEEN 3ALAAY FAHMAAA!! SHNOOOW BYADCHHH??
Me: hathy guitar?? Shnow bkoon ya3ny
Witch: YAL 7A8EERA LA T8ELEEEN ADABCHH!! ROO7Y 3ALA 7JRTCHH W FKEENA MN WAYHCHH!! YALLAA THELFYYY
I walked slowly to me jail,akeed mthawsha wya the rat w ga3da 6al3 7arat'ha 3alay :) layan, don’t cry, just stay strong, I wasn’t raised to break down and cry, shhhh!! Calm down…. I rested my head on a bag they gave me to use as a pillow, and my body on the blankets they gave me to use as a bed, in ba7rain, there wasn’t much options for adoption parents, so I didn’t really have a choice, I decided I'd bare with them until im older, then I'll leave them and start a new life… I waited till the clock struck 2:30 so I can go see joud, she said she wanted us to meet and she had a surprise for me :s ?? 2:15, I went out of the house but unfortunately found the rat back from work
Rat: entyyy weein ray7aa enshalaa??
Me: baroo7 achoof rfeejty
Rat: sh3ndhchh wya rfeejtchh??
Me: shy59kkk????!?!?!!
And I just run off, but I heard him shout: '7A8EERAA'
I hope they don’t kill me when I get back home :'( I went to joud's school, and found her waiting for me outside the gates
Me: JOOUUDD
Joud: LAAYAAAN!!
I hugged her so tight, it feels like years since ive last seen her!!
Joud: wa7shteeny yal chalbaaa
Me: w enty akthar yal 7maaraa!!
We went back to her house so she can change (btw, my clothes, joud does the shopping for me once a month, so I wear her style cause she thinks I have no style xD and yea I do feel bad about her paying for me, but she insisted and it's either her, or I wear old cloth from the jail's garbage :) ) and then we went to esquires
Me: haa shnow el surprise??
Joud: layan awal shay abeech t7lfeen ench btyeen
Me: ohoooo!!!
Joud: layaaan this is for your own good!!
Me: fine, wallaa bayee
Joud: good, elyoum bawadeech the anonymous tango
Me: LAAAA MSTA7EEEEEL
The anonymous tango is this alcohol-free club, were you wear masquerade masks, and dance with anonymous guys and girls, if you want to take off the mask, that’s your choice, but no one does that, that place is supposed to be were yu can feel free, and do what ever you want with whoever you want without anyone knowing who you are
Joud: layaaan yuu swore!!
Me: jouud t3arfeen ena ma7b a6l333, especially these types of places
Joud: layan 3ayal yu want to stay looked up in your jail?? Plus enty mn mta ma rga9ty?!?!? W we both know how good yu are at tango!!
Me: fine!! Bs ma3ndy fstaan!!
Joud: and what am I here for??
Me: I lovee you
Joud: adryy
To be continued
