Chapter 51

I Will Love You Till The End Of Time

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ADAM'S SIDE

Ok this is it, 5ala9, this is where my life will end, and hers will begin

Me: layan, abeech tfhmeeny

Layan: umm okay

Tears lightly formed in her eyes, I think 7asat!! Omg her eyes, shlon ba3eesh bdoonhm?!?!? The light of the moon reflected her huge eyes, making them glow almost brighter than the moon

Me: layan ma3arf shlon bagolch hal shay bl'6ab6, bs layan, yu and I both now ena ana ma bat7asan, ya3ny 5ala9 it's final, I know, this is cancer, mb ay mara'9, w ana mabeech t'6ay3een 7ayatch w enty yamy, trying to make me feel better, that’s not the point of life, you arnt supposed to live  it this way, w ana baray7ch mn el7een, 5ala9 the journey ends here

Tears were falling from her eyes like a rainfall

Layan: (with a craky voice) adam shtgul ent?!??! Yanaaitt?!?!? Anaa ma ba3eesh bdoonk, msta7eel!! W shnow ya3ny its not the point in life?!?! There is no point in life, you choose your own point, and I choose youuu!! You cant do this to me!  To uss!! What happened to promise me you'll never leave me alone?!?what happened to our vows?!?! And what journey!! The only journey In life, is life itself, the journey ends when you die!! And by ending the journey, your killing us both

Me: (I tried my best to hold my tears, she already crying to much, if she sees me crying she'll just get worst)layan, I wont let you!! This wont happen!! You need to understand that w mb bs 3an halon, i…(come one adam you can say this)i.. anaa mabeech, I don’t …love you..anymore

Those words cut inside her like a knife, her mouth was half open, and even without facial expressions, her tears wouldn’t end, they were falling uncontrollably down her rosy cheeks, her face was drowning, she had nothing else to say I guess, I turned around and walked away

Layan: ADAAAM!! PLEASEE YOUU CANT LEAVEE MEE!! NOT NOWWW, ADAAAM YOUU CANT DOO THIISS !! YOUU PROMISEDD

I looked back and she was catching up to me, so I started running so she wouldn’t see me crying and know that I was lying

LAYAN'S SIDE

ME: ADAAAM YOUU CANT DOO THIISS !! YOUU PROMISEDD!! ADAAAAAM PLEASEEE!!!

I ran abit more, I searched for him everywhere , but it was no use, I couldn’t see straight anymore, my legs felt weak and I was tired of all the crying, I dropped down on the floor and I got really dizzy, it was so dark and I was still crying, my sleeves were to wet to dry my face anymore, it was dark, and the sea's breeze hit me, I couldn’t see anything and then my head dropped on the floor, it did hurt, I lost all the energy inside of me, my eyes were too heavy to be carried anymore and so my eyes shut, I was still conscience, and I tried my best to open my eyes just abit, making a door for the rest of the tears to fall down again, but I saw a tall black figure running toward me and shouting my name, I couldn’t make out the voice but I was hoping that it was adam! I know its adam!! I knew he'll be back, bs this was it, I had no energy anymore and I passed out

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When I regained my conscience again, I felt water on my face, and I heard reem and marya talking , and I felt someone next to me.. ADAAM!! I cant wait to see his angel like face close to me again!! I opened my eyes, more tears fell, not of happiness, of sadness again, it wasn’t who I expected to be, why him?!? Wherss adam?!?!?

Me: wain adam??

Ebrahim: layan he's gone, I saw him take his car and leave

Me: laaa!! Laaa he wontt leaaavee meee

I jumped of the bed and ran out the chalet crying, I heard marya and reem screaming my name, but I gave them no attention, then I felt someone grab me

Ebrahim: LAYAAN WAIN RAY7AA?!?! 5ALA9 ADAM RA7!! HE WONT BE BACKK TA3ALYY!!

Me: EBRAHIIM ETRKNYYY!! LEETT MEEE GOOOOOO!!

I tried to release myself from his grip but he was too strong, so I decided to give up and fall, but he caught me, adam was supposed to catch me, not him, he carried me back into the chalet and put me on the bed, he got a tissue and wiped my tears, marya and reem wanted to come in, but he said he wanted to talk to me :(

He lied down next to me on the bed

Me: (crying) that was supposed to be adams place!! He's supposed to be here, not you

Ebrahim: yes layan, he's supposed to , bs adam 6le3 msh rjaal, he IS NOT a man, shoofy keef tarkek w ra7, why would anyone do that, especially to someone like you layan, enty mabt3rfy how valuable you are, you might not realize it, but you are, you don’t need someone whos going to leave you when he feels like it, la2no you deserve much better…layan I love you, w I can take care of you, I keep my promises, I will not leave you hanging

Me: Ebrahim I love him, im sorry, (still crying) bs I need him

Ebrahim: ta3alyy layan, ta3aaly

He pulled me up to his chest, I accepted not because I thought it will keep me safe or make me feel better, but to imagine it was adam, I imagined that I put my head on adams chest, and that he put his arm  around my neack, and I rested my hands on adam's neck, like I usually do, then adam kisses my fore head, and I fall asleep, im not usually crying when I fall asleep, this time, I was, I cried myself to sleep on 'adams' chest, mb Ebrahim, Ebrahim never came right?? And adam never left me hanging, right?!?!
I fell asleep

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I woke up, and found reem and Marya sleeping next to me, they were sleeping f sab3 noma,
gmt w '3asalt wayhee, ba3dain badalt thyabee, yebt fstan aswad, perfect! 6ala3t wayhee fl mn'9ra w 6l3 shaklyy ma2saaa!!! 3yoony kanaw 7adhm baggy w chnhm le7een ragdeen mn kthr el 9ya7 ely 97ta ams, w el patch can soaked, fa shlta, el doctor gal lazem a5aly patch 3ashan el stiches ma yltahboon mn el jaratheem ely fl jaw, bs el7een, mahtam, etha Adam ma  bkoon wyay, mala da3y antbh 3ala roo7y, la2na 7ayaty ma tswa shy bdoona, 6la3t mn el chalet w r7t el island, el mkan ely 7abait adam, awal mara ely 9ij glt 7ag roo7y ena amoot fee, kan fl island
w9alt, w 6l3 ena laya w s3ood ba3ad mny, yada 3ala her waist w yadha 3ala his waist, kanaw mstanseen w ga3deen y'97koon, I don’t want to ruin there day, fa n5ashait shwy, w n6arthm yroo7oon, when they left I went to the island, and I got flashbacks:

We were in the sea

Adam: yalla ma btdsheeen??

Me: mbala bs bat2akad ena mafyy shay

Adam: wahahahahahahahhaaa la t5afeen layaan walla mafyy shay

Me: heeey lat'97aak!!

ANOTHER FLASHBACK

we were rolling on the shore like kids and we were laughing like anything, then when we stopped, we were looking into each other's eyes and smiling, adam was on top of me, the he started lowering himself to kiss me, but then d3y came and saw us

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9ij ayam :') when I came back to reality, la7a'9t wayhee was wet again, I was crying involuntarily, I wiped my tears, turned around and found marya and reem running to me

Reem: laaayaaan

Shfeehm?? They got to me and said:

Marya: laaayaan wain r7taaay?!?!

Me: (stil cracked up voice) ma r7t mkan, bs yeet mny

Reem: w shla ma 5atheitay telephonch wyaach??

Me: w shlla a5thaa

Marya: shnow shla ta5theena?!?! Shlon bn3arf wainch

Me: it's not important

Reem: layan were's the patch

Me: 6a7

Reem: layaaan t3arfeen ena mb zzain!! Bs shltee anywayss!! 9aa7?!?!

Marya: layan ma9adig shnow ga3da tsaween b roo7ch, it's not the end of the world

Marya it is the end of the world…I couldn’t say anything, I just started crying again, reem hugged me

Reem: shhhh, bs layan, it's okay, you'll be fine without him

Me: noo I won't bee

They walked me back to the chalet, ma kan ly 5lg atem, so I packed my bags and went back home, when I entered my house, I didn’t go to the 9ala (what I usually do) but I went straight to me room, I heard my mum call out my name, but I didn’t answer, theres no use anymore, why am I still here?!?! I know this is the end, im going to die unexpectedly anyways, why not die now??! Adam said it’s the end of the journey? Then fine, I'll end it! I got out some rope I had for when I had a project in year 12, so it finally did come in handy!!, I measured the size of my neck, and then tied a knot, I got a chair, stood on it, and tied a really tight knot on the fan, thankgod I have a high ceiling!! I put the rope around my head and tightened it more on my neck ,then i backed of the chair slowly, then I kicked the chair, and fell, I was suffocating, I couldn’t breathe anymore, my face felt very hot and my neck was killing me, I finally knew that this is the end…