I was suffocating, I couldn’t breathe anymore, my face felt very hot and my neck was killing me, I finally knew that this is the end…I knew I was going to die any second now. I said "ashad ena la2 elaha ela alla w ma7amd ra9ool alla' in my haed cause I had no oxyen to say It lout loud, my heart was beating really fast, why aren’t I dead yet?!? This is taking to long and it hurts to much!! Its torture, then when I started loosing conscience, someone opened the door…SHIT I FORGOT TO LOOK IT
3adel: LAYAAAN LAAA!!!
3adeel ent laa!! Pleasee leave meee!! I wish I could actually say that, tears fell from my eyes, then he came to me, he didn’t know what to do, how to unhang me, I hope I die before he firgues it out, then he carried me from my legs, so that the rope wouldn’t suffocate me anymore, and I inhaled, omg OXYGEEEN!!! Bs I don’t want itt
Me: 3adeeel etrknyy!! Pleasee just let me diiieee!!
3adel: laayaaan sheely el rope mn ra9k!! noooow
Me: laaa!! 3adel let me goo
3adel with his leg grabbed the chair and dragged it to where he stood, and stood on it, then he untied the rope from the fan (I was too busy crying my eyes out to stop him, 5ala9 he saw me, theres nothing I can do now,ill try something else later) and got down the chair and pulled me on the bed were he lied me down and lied down next to me
3adel: I don’t know why yu did that, I don’t know why yu wanted to end so many peoples life, by ending yours, I don’t know what the hell is going through your mind and made you so selfish ans stupid, bs I wont ask now, just relax your mind, and when yu think about talking about it, then let me now
Me: (still crying) can yu leave me alone for abit
3adel: ha ha! After what I just saw, msta7eel, f a7lamk okk, you won't leave my sight for even a minute
I just cried my eyes out in my brothers arms… I know this is stupid, ending my life beacause adam ended a relationship, but it wasn’t any relationship… it wasn’t just any guy, he's unique, I don’t know what he did to me…all I know is that I can't , for a second, just imagine my life without him, I can't walk like nothing is happeneing knowing that adam is going to be with another girl, I just cant't…… after a while, I calmed down and said
Me: its over
3adel: whats over?
Me: me and adam…(I started crying on these words) are over
3adel: WHAAATT!?!?!?
Me: he doesn’t love me anymore, and he thinks that if we stay together, I wont get a chance to live my life because I'll be to busy helping him with cancer
3adel: layan are you serious?
Me: (I nodded my head)
I looked at 3adel and he had the biggest frown on his face and his breathing got heavier and his face became red
Me: 3adel calm down, its not his fault he doesn’t love me
3adel: DOOOEESS THAAT BITCHH NOOW YOUU TRIEED SUICIDINGG ?!?!?! DOOESS HEE KNOOW WHAT HE DIDDD BECAUSE OFF HIS STUPIDD WAY OF THINKING?!? WAS THIS HIS PLAN FROM THE BEGGINGIN?!? TO USEEE YOUU FOR A WHIILE?!?!?!
I couldn’t say anything, I just cried harder
3adel: im sorry layan, I lost it, bs enty estany, howee beshoof,ystana 3alay
Me: 3adel laa tsawy eshy, please! 3ashanyy
He didn’t say anything, he looked at his hand, and there was tiny drop of blood
3adel: shoo hay??
He wiped it, and it there was no scratch, its not his blood, he looked at me, and with a shocked face he said
3adel: not again!! Your neck tooo?!?!?
Me: shoo??
He ran and got me a tissue
Me: shoooo??
3adel: your nose, its bleeding, and even our neck, baroo7 bajeeb detol 3ashan your neck, layan, don’t do anything while im gonee
I wiped my nose and kept my head up, touched my neck and it burned!! Like heellll!! I guess its because of the rope, I saw my hand and it had blood on it, so I guess my neck is bleeding to, not only burns
Ba3dain yaa 3adel w 7a6 detol 3ala cotton, w shwy shwy msa7 my neck
Me: aaaaaaa777777 3addeeel baasss
It burned like he was setting fire to my neck
3adel: its what yu get for acting dumb
He continued wiping it all around, but it still shows, so he told me to wrap it with a ribbon or something when I go out, 3abala orphan -_-
3adel tam wyay shwy ba3dain gal
3adel: wein laya??
Me: maba3rf, akeed ra7at el honeymoon by now
3adel: ma bt3rf??
Me: laa
3adel: who does?
Me: marya w reem
3adel: wheres your phone?
Me: in my bag, laish
He didn’t answer me, he got out my phone, went through it shwy ba3dain he put it on his ear
Me: whoo are you calling??!?!
3adel: allooo ..marya?........ ee ana 3adel…..weinach el7een, enty w reem?? ………..enzain abekm tyoon baitna el7een…..bs ….ufff enty ta3aly w bt3arfeeen!!...byee
Me: laisshh??
3adel: I really need to go to work , and your not staying alone
Me: 3adel im not a child
3adel: yes you are
UUUFFFFFF!!! HE DOESNTT UNDERSTAAANDD!!!!!!
TO BE CONTINUED
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