Chapter 15

When I got home , I went staright to my room and called Laya

Me: aloo

Laya: aluu

Me: halla

Laya: ahlaain , haa ro7aitaw ?? shlon kan

Me: ee re7na , laya yksroon el 5a6r wallaaa , shkthr 97ttt , ma2sa 7alathm, ely mb fl private rooms they joined them in this small cage, lazeeem ykabroon el '3rf ma2saa theyre too small to fit all these kids

Laya: wee masakeen , 3ayal zain ely ma yeet

Me : mmm, enzain sm3ay, bacher mnroo7 el ritz, w Marya w reem byoon wyana

Laya: alaaay mn zman ma r7naa

Me: adryy 7asaitaayy

Laya: eee, enzain sa3a cham

Me: madry ya3ny afternoonish

Laya: okaayzz

Me: enzain bakml 3an el zyara ( I told her about 7abeeb, and how the kids look like and what we did in the hospital)

I went downstairs to have dinner and found everyone back home

Me: el salam 3alaikm

All: w 3alaikm el salam

Obooy: keefk layan

Me: mnee7a el 7amdilla, how was work

Obooy: tiring

3adel:: oooh layaan roo7too el mstashfa elyoum wla la?

Me: laa r7na,kasaroo 5a6ry masakeen 7alt'hm 7alaa

Omy: alla ysa3dhm nshalla

All: amen

Me:w how was the interview

3adel:: el7amdilla it was very good, too early to decide bas I think they'll hire me, keef 3rfty??

Me: mama told me

When we finished eating 3adel called me too his room , wayed sta'3rabt, I have neveeer been to his room unless I'm waking him up, what did he want from me, ya3ny shla ma galyy jdaam ahly, laish private ,alla yastr … I knocked the door

3adel: footyy(I enterd his room , my heart was beating so fast, I knew something happened by the look on his face)

Me: 5airr 3adel shoo??

3adel: sit down (haaa shfee thyy shnow sit down, shit ya3ny akeeeed 9ayrr shyy)

Me:(I sat down on his bed)what's happening??

3adel: umm you tell me , 9a7by ejaly w 2allyy ena he saw d3y shouting at you w enty shouting back , you were at the island?? Fee bainkm eshyy ?? w keef ystrjy y9ay7 3alaiky

Me: (shiiiiiitt omgg, bas el7amdilla he didn’t see adam!! Omg my body is burning, I need a quick lie and I am NOT good at lies , shiiit shaguuul, I needed something which wouldn’t cause 3adel to go beat up d3y, la2ana I know he would, omg I feel numb shaguul) 3adel enta shoo bt2ool , I would never get into a relationship , especially with d3y , ya3ny he's my bestfriend w yu know that

3adel: so why was he shouting??? (his voice got louder on that sentence)

Me: (omg I still didn’t make up a lie) umm.. la2no kaan m3a9b, i… tried to calm him down w he got more angry, fa ana 3a9abet w we started shouting at eachother , not a big deal(I hoopoe im not blushing!!)

3adel: and why was he mad??

Me: ( uffff 3adeel) shoo hay ta78ee88??? Whats rong with you 3adool (I tried to change the subject) are you okay fee eshyy mza3lak?

3adel: la la not at all, bas I want to know why d3y was mad w it seems like your having a hard time answering

Me: (YEESS I found the perfect lie, my heart was still beating soo fast w I looked at my hands w im shivering , nshalla mayla7e'9 !! ) I wouldn’t tell you la2na its d3y's personal life(rafa3t 9ooty shy 3ashan I look like im mad ) e5too got into a relationship with his worst enemy w 3a9ab 3alihaa kteer, I knew he would hurt her if he didn’t calm down soo I stopped him w tried to talk to him… happy ?!!?!? I just gave away my bestfreinds secret!!

I ran out of the room and slammed the door behind me .. I felt soo mad , I was making him feel guilty when im the wrong person.. I ran too my room and locked the door, I never knew I would have to lie this way to my own brother… we are so close how could I do this too him?!?! Shiiit akeed he feels guilty el7een omg mskeen, I started crying, magdrt I felt so guilty, I covered my mouth with a pillow 3ashan ma7ad ysma3ny and suddenly, all the flashbacks rewinded in my head, I saw my sister get squeezed to death under a car , I remembered when I heard that noor w zain twafaw, I saw all the cancer children in their beds, I remembered my black childhood, I saw the little friendless 15 year old fighting to stay strong, but was still afraid of her own shadow… I just kept crying and crying , I wanted to scream soo badly, I felt weak again … after a few hours of crying my eyes out I drifted too sleep …

TO BE CONTINUED…