Chapter 25

Face your fears, its the only way you'll make it

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And she hung up the phone! Sta'3frallaa 3ala hal awadem, she's a freakin mother, ebnha ma taby tchoofa, hal mara shla 3ayshaaa a9laan?!?!? El 9ara7a ma9adig ely sma3taa,el mhm 5alna mnha el7een

Radait el 7jra trying to look happy, I had the biggest smile, I'm going to save a child's life, all I have to do el7een a8n3 ahlyy which might be hard, bas im doing it whether they like it or not, the minute I entered i got a phone call

Me: aloo

Laya: aluu

Me: LAYAAAAA T6AB88AAWW!!!!

Laya: OMGGG 9IIJJ!! EL7AMDILLLAAAA

Me: mat9adgeen how happy I am el7eeen!!

Laya: 3afya 3aliach layan!! Enzain sm3ay enty wain el7een??

Me: ana 3nd 7abeeb el7een , ba3dain baroo7 7ag Adam

Laya: enzain 3ayal we'll give you some privacy shwy ba3dain mnl7gch

Me: enzain ok

Laya: byee

Me: byee

I went back to 7abeeb to tell him the good news!!

Me: (I sat down on his bed) 7abeeb guess what!?? Ent enshalaa btt7asan, we have the same blood, I'll donate whatever your body needs w btt7asan

7abeeb: (he was dying to put on a smile, he managed to in the end and with the most shakiest voice I've ever heard he said) m..yy    h.ee..rr..oo     thank..youu

I hugged him ga3at wya shwy w I went to Adam

I walked too adams room and knocked the door , once , twice, thrice…no answer?? Laykoon 9arla shay, dashait w I found him looking outside the window on a wheelchair

Me: (I walked slowly towards him, why wasn’t he looking back at me??) umm adam

Adam: (he slowly turned his head back to me, smiled the biggest and most beautiful smile I've ever seen and said) ohh layan hay enty??

Me: hhhhh ee ana, who did you think it was??

Adam: madry 3abaly ahly or the nurses

(I thought cancer would bring familys together, el '9aher laa, 7ata Adam ma yaby ychoof 3ailta?!?!)

Me: (I grabbed a chair and sat next to him) w why wouldn’t you answer etha kan ahlk??

Adam: (t'3ayar wayha, chna t'9ayag mn ely glta) mb mhm (he looked back at the window)

Umm b59oo9??? Akeed fee shay baina w bain ahlaa.. ma knt aby a'9ayga right now so glt bas2la ba3dain, his window had a nice view, there was grass and flowers and soo many birds flying around

Me: mmm, enzain are you ok, shlonk el youm

Adam:….

Me: adam?? Are you okay

Adam: madam enty mny akeed im ok (he looked at me and smiled, as much as I loved it, it wasn't the answer I wanted to hear)

Me: Adam please, mn9ijyy el7een are you sure you're ok, wayhk a9far

Adam: im fine, bas ams t3abt shwy

Me: 9iiij?!? you shouldn’t have cameee, ana el '3abyaa a9lan ely glt- (ga6a3ny)

Adam: shhhh.. (he put his finger on my mouth sending chills down my spine!!) a7ibchh

Me: uff mnk, w ana a7ibk

Adam: can you help me to my bed ??

Me: ee suree!! ( I got off the chair and helped him get off the wheelchair, mskeen he was soo weak, shakla wayyeddd t3ab ams, I took his arm around my neck and walked him to his bed)

Adam: (exhaling deeply) thankyouu… layan…. please ta3alyy

Me: haa? Wain ayee?? Akoony mny

Adam: laa I mean ta3aly yamyy

Me: (now I knew what he meant, I wanted to go so baad bas madry it felt wrong, so ga3at astahbl) ana yamkk adam, don’t worry

Adam: layan ta3aly nba67y yamyy

Me: ohh, madry ad-(ga6a3ny again)

Adam: please( waaaay I couldn’t handle his puppy eyes, 5ala9 I don’t care, even if its wrong I don’t want to be right!! )

I walked to his bed and lied down next to him, he put his hand behind my neck, I rested my head on his chest and with his other arm he wrapped himself around me, it was so romantic, bas I just wish it wouldn’t have to be in a hospital!!

Adam: layan a7ibchh

Me: amout feek ana

We just stayed silent enjoying ourselves, 5ft rab3y eyoon w ychoofoony halon, fsheela so I text laya:

 Laya please can you not come, were discussing a few things w we need more time , thankyouu !!! a7ibkmm wayeed :***

Chooof el 6arda bas, w have fun discussing things xD don’t woryy ma bnyee

I didn’t answer her back, 7asait water on my head somehow, 6ala3t fog ela achoof adam ga3d y9eee7

Me: adam shfeeek ( I sat up straight)

Adam: … layan I don’t want to be here!!

Me: (a tear rolled down my face, I couldn’t see him like this ma t7amalat) Adam im soryy bas you need to, it’s the only place whi—

Adam: I don’t mean here, I mean I don’t want to have cancer, mabyy!! Le7een fee ashyaaa wayeeed aby asaweeha fe 7ayaty, I want to experience things!! Maby yent'hy 6aree8y halfway through, layan wayed 5ayeef

(it's amazing what cancer can do to person, ya3ny Adam, hes a grown mature man, w choofoo, he's crying to me like a helpless child, don’t get me wrong I don’t mind it, but im just amazed by the fear it can develop in a person's soul)

Me: adam please don’t cry, magdar achoofk halon, esma3 don’t worry, we'll both make it through this, btt7asan w nshalla you'll experience whatever you want to experience !! just have some patience( I started crying now my voice 9ar 7ada shaky) okk! Please have some patience, you're going to go through hard days, bas it won't last forever, stay strong adam, please just( 9ooty ra7 w I started whisper –talking-crying if you know what I mean) stay strong

Adam: ( sniffing) enty a7la shay 9ar b7ayatyy layan, a7ibchh, w I promise I'll try to stay strong( he pulled me back to his chest )pleasee la t9ee7een 3alay magdar achoofch halon

We stayed in that position for almost half an hour, I looked up at him w I found him sleeping, ksrr 5a6ryyyyyy and he looked soo cuteee!! I slowly released his grip and got off his bed , left him a note and got out the room slowly, the note said:

I had to go im soo soryy, hope you had a good sleep!! I love you, and don’t forget, stay strong!!

Radait 7ag el banat, kanaw fl cafeteria..

TO BE CONTINUED